In my world, there is sometimes too much information or TMI.
I am sitting in a busy event loud music is playing, a siren starts to wail, I see the sunlight reflecting on a car.
People walking, talking, stopping, laughing, eating, and sitting.
I put earplugs in my ears to try to stop the noise,
But the noise leaks through anyways.
I want to softly rock all of it away,
But I know I can’t.
People would stare, and the shame, oh the shame would come onto me.
So I wait, the minutes slowly dragging out, slowly I start to feel the energy draining out of me.
I can’t take this anymore, so I hunch over and try to shut it all out.
I feel like I want to scream.
People try to help me, they ask me what is wrong. but sometimes I just can’t tell then
because I am so overwhelmed.
I eat in silence, wishing it would all stop.
Suddenly the music stops, and the noise level becomes more bearable.
I find my energy returning, going through my body, I feel a little better now.
But still, I am tired from all the information.
This is what it is like to have Autism.
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