Sometimes I don’t know what to talk about with a person. I can usually engage in a conversation with people I know if somebody talks to me first, but I can have a really hard time trying to figure out what subject to talk about when trying to start a conversation. I know I can’t just talk about Manga and horses, and I’m not ready to tell people I’m Autistic yet. I try to think of things, but my mind just goes blank.
If somebody suggests a subject for me to talk about then I can usually do that. I’m not a robot, but it helps if somebody can give me a suggestion on what to talk about. Even in texting my best friend I run out of ideas at some point while texting. I try to pay attention to what other people in my extra activities are talking about, but so much of it is things I don’t understand such as boyfriends, smartphones (I don’t have one), 4-H, and other things.
Sometimes my social anxiety takes over and I end up not talking at all. I might look really stupid if I say “How are you?”. With people I know I spend tons of time analyzing what I’m going to talk about before I see them. Usually, I end up going by the plan, but sometimes I end up veering off because the people I know go to a different subject.
When I do run out of subject material and everything is quiet I go into my head and think about what I’m going to do (e.g. eat supper, work with my horse, do homework, work on school, practice piano, do screen time, etc.). I don’t like breaking silence most of the time because it’s uncomfortable for me to do that.
It’s just another social skill I’ve not quite gotten good at yet.
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