Sometimes I hate myself. My social anxiety tells me about all the stupid things that I do. I did something that everybody else was not happy about. Now, I’m hating myself because of my mistake.
I’ve always found it hard to accept my “mistakes”. Every mistake I make is repeated in my head over and over again. The voices of my social anxiety scream in my head and I feel bad about myself.
Sometimes I can help myself by drawing, reading, listening to music, or writing. Sometimes I just have to try to push through it. I try not to think about my mistakes, but they keep coming back.
Someday I hope to be able to get control over my social anxiety so that I can be confident about myself and enjoy being around others. 🙂
Sometimes I hate myself, but I’m trying to work through it.
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